Friday, February 18, 2005

Hidden Pain

To life,
I walk around like IM da happiest person on Earth. Every1 thinks that my life is soo good. I do belive dat my life is good becuz I wake up to see da next day. Even dat alone does not plz me any more. I have decide that life goes on and so wat eva happens is wat I should be plzed with. Dat may be hard but thats part of the hidden pain I have it hide. The hidden pain I have are tryin to plz ma mother every single day. Tryin to plz everyone but me. And never trying to show that I have pain in me. I have acomplished dis very well becuz I have hidden my pain and have plzed every one but myself.

Thursday, February 17, 2005

Da 1 within

To life,
I waited 2 years 4 him but it took only 1 day for some 1 to take him away. The one person who I thought would neva do me wrong, has become da person dat has left me in peices. The one person who always said I should trust is da one person who I would neva look as a trust worthy person. I have broken down but I neva thought it would because of "Him". They say I can not be with him, I ask Y, they say is cuz of his life. But I sit here and say God picks how persons life is goin to be. If his life was ment for me to be in it. Y are they takin me out. I cry and don't know Y. I cry and think maybe this person dat has to come out my life is wat I really need in my life. I still don't understand how everything I gain is later turned into pain. I still don't understand why I have to leave "Him". I neva thought this person would make me feel so good in and out. But I guess da 1's takin "Him" out my life don't and may neva know how this person has changed me.

Tuesday, February 15, 2005


Let me tell you girl
Whoa whoa whoa
Hey here I go(Here I go)

[Verse 1]
I know you heard men saying time and time again
That they would rock your world and change your life
But I cant blame them cause you make a ----- wanna get involved
wanna get them drawers
Well Im gonna put my bid in and get at you
No disrespect but I want it as bad as they do
The only differences is they look out on themselves
But Im doing it just to hear you yell

It's gonna be the sound girl when its going down ,Your body saying
Don't have to say my name girl im just glad you came ,So u can say
In the morning
In the night
You say O always hitting it right
You cant be mad at me
Im just aiming to please
Let me hear you scream O

[Verse 2]
Girl come on and get this thing crackin
You'll be surprised when see what O's packing
Cause im young but im ready
Tryna get hot and heavy, Turn you out if you let me(yeah yeah yeah)
Girl Im gonna take you somewhere that you never been
Show you something's that I make you want to show your friends
Have you so hit that you cant say a thing
But that's ok all you gotta say is


[Verse 3]
O is for that overtime I'm putting in
We'll go for hours take a break and go at it again
Girl I'll work my way from A all the way to Z
But trust me babygirl O is where you wanna be
Girl believe me when I tell you Im not tryna tell you what to do
Because when it's said and done, The choice aint mines it's really up to you
Just say yes, Don't fix your mouth to tell me no
Drop that bottom off on me
And just say


Let me hear you say O when im hitting it
Let me hear you say O when im getting it
Let me hear you say O when you come to the door
Let me hear you say O from the bed to the floor
Let me hear you say O when its all going down
Let me hear you say O when you cant make another sound
Babygirl let me hear you scream O
Babygirl let me hear you scream O

King James

Thursday, February 10, 2005

Diva Starzz!!

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

Ma Song

Thursday, February 03, 2005

pReCiOuS mOmEnTs

I try 2 understand Y everything we have is goin by soo fast. Wen it took so long 4 us to get wat we got. Presious moments is wat we got. Presious moments is wat I always wish 2 have wit U. Juss don't let our pesious moments go 2 waste.


Dear Life,
I was talkin 2 a friend of mine 2day. Yesterday she had a break down. Dat scared me half to death. I try to understand Y she does da things she does, but I neva can. She really hurt herself and wen I look @ her I don't see how she can sit dere and cut her self. Dis morning her and I were talkin.

I asked her how she can sit there and juss cut herslf?

She said " it takes my pain away".

I looked @ her and told her dat her cuttin herself is hurtin othas around her and her off curse. I den asked her wats causes her to cut herself.

She said dat "every lil thing in my life dat is not good has juss caught up wit me."

I remember her explainin her life to me, and Im not goin 2 lie but she has a f*cked up life. But every human in earth has a f*cked up life. I told her dat. She looked @ me and started 2 cry.

She told "Wen I was samll I was abused. Da person dat abused me, has f*cked me up and wen I try 2 forget all da neagative things, BUT ITS JUSS TOOO HARD. "

I kno its hard too juss 4get about somethin like dat. But dere are times wen U juss have to give things up.

Da last word I got to tell ma friend is Y waste all U got, 4 one dumb person who U may neva see again?

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

Santana Santana Santana

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